at least i won't have to resort to turning tricks on the street in the immediate future

after 3 months, i finally got some more definitive news on the merger and my job. only a slight delay, since we were told that we should hear something within 30 days of the initial announcement in jan. since payroll is considered a key position, the tentative plan is to keep both my boss & i around until feb 2010. if i stay until then, i will receive approx 5 months severance. uncle sam will take a hefty chunk of it (motherfucker), but it will still give me a few months buffer if i need it (which i hope won't be the case). i'm glad to have some idea of what to expect. i always knew that i was going to lose my job, but not knowing when was driving me insane. think this may explain my recent increase in alcohol consumption? hmmm.....perhaps. i told my boss that one day soon i may start grieving for my job loss, so if i come in to work bawling, she'll know why. or at least one reason why. lol

i haven't written in a while & i think i see a trend with my blog posts. they seem to stop a little before that "time" of the month and don't pick up again until after it is well over. coincidence? i'm thinking no. lol i'm grateful twitter has been my blog stand-in, cuz i can write little bits during this angsty time instead of a long bitchy post where it seems like i could use a couple of stiff ones. i'm also reading like crazy these days as another diversion, but it totally could have something to do with the books i'm reading. steamy vampire romance novels..........VERY nice!

the green-eyed monster came to visit this weekend, cuz one of my best friends is relaxing in hawaii while i'm stuck in freakin' utah. so not fair. hawaii is on my list of places to visit, so i am very VERY jealous that she is there without me. so what if she has her husband with her? i should be there! (i know you know i'm kidding tanya cuz i can hear "you're a dork!" all the way over here on the mainland. ROFL)

this weekend was fairly uneventful. i got some alone time when the husband took ashley out on some errands. i had some errands to do myself on saturday, but decided to take advantage of the empty house. but then of course, the errands still needed to be done.....today. afterwards, i treated myself to some retail therapy. nothing that would get me into too much hot water, but just enough to make it a good day.....for me. but i think someone had a problem with my shopping spree, cuz the skies opened up and hailed on me! wtf? i didn't spend THAT much! and no i'm not taking it back, so there! lol